Assalamualaikum kepada Dr Ahmad Zamri. Ini adalah jurnal saya yang terakhir bagi kursus ZT2253 bagi semester ini. Pada 24 Ogos 2011, saya tidah dapat menghadiri kuliah kerana terlibat dalam pengurusan bagi program Ihya Ramadhan di kolej kediaman. Namun, saya telah mengulang kaji dan memdapat info daripada rakan- rakan yang telah hadir kuliah pada hari itu. Berdasarkan mereka, kuliah kali ini lain daripada yang lain kerana kita belajar melalui video bukan sahaja nota kuliah dn pelbagai aktiviti telah dilakukan semasa kuliah tersebut. Antara aktiviti yang telah mereka lakukan pada hari tersebut adalah dua kuiz tentang personality.
Apakah itu personality???
A definition for personality is offered by Carver and Scheier (2000): Personality is a dynamic organisation, inside the person, of psychophysical systems that create a person's characteristic patterns of behaviour, thoughts, and feelings. Carver & Scheier (2000)
- Dynamic Organisation: suggests ongoing readjustments, adaptation to experience, continual upgrading and maintaining Personality doesn't just lie there. It has process and it's organised.
- Inside the Person: suggests internal storage of patterns, supporting the notion that personality influences behaviours, etc.
- Psychophysical systems: suggests that the physical is also involved in who we are.
- Characteristic Patterns: implies that consistency/continuity which are uniquely identifying of an individual
- Behaviour, Thoughts, and Feelings: indicates that personality includes a wide range of psychological experience/manifestation: that personality is displayed in MANY ways.
http://wilderdom.com/personality/L5-1WhatIsPersonality.html
Jelaslah daripada definisi Carver And Scheier (2000) bahawa personality ini bukan sahaja cara tingkah laku dan pemikiran kita tetapi ia mempunyai banyak component yang complex yang berlaku secara serentak di dalam badan kita untuk membentuk "personality" seseorang itu.
Pada awal kuliah, suatu video tentang jenis- jenis personality telah ditunjukkan. Personality ini terdiri daripada dua jenis iaitu Type A atau Type B personality. Type A personality adalah seseorang yang selalu berkejar seperti makan, bercakap dan memandu dengan laju. Mereka sering kali dikatakan aggressif, tidak sabar, perfectionist dan kompetitif. Personality Type B pula adalah yang bertentangan dengan Type A. Mereka seseornag yang penyabar dan laid back atau easy going. Mereka tidak terburu-buru ketika melakukan sesuatu perkara dan menjalani kehidupan dengan tenang. Keburukan Type A personality adalah mereka lebih berkemungkinan besar untuk menghidap penyakit yang berkaitan dengan stress seperti penyakit jantung, kemurungan, depression dan pelbagai lagi penyakit mental. Oleh itu, seseorang yang mempunyai Type A personality di nasihatkan agar selalu bersabar dan cuba mengurangkan stress serta belajar untuk tidak terlalu serius dan take life easily agar mereka tidak menghadapi masalah kesihatan yang serius pada masa depan nanti. Secara personal, saya berasa bahawa saya mempunyai kedua- dua ciri- ciri personality Type A dan B. Oleh itu, saya agak keliru sedikit namun apa yang saya boleh lakukan sekarang adalah cuba mengurang jumlah ciri-ciri Type A personality dalam kehidupan seharian.
Setelah itu, kami perlu melakukan kuiz personality untuk menentukan personality kami. Terdapt 2 jenis kuiz iaitu kuiz Myers-Briggs Type Indicator dan The Big-Five Model. Bagi Myers-Briggs Type Indicator- ia membahagikan personality kepada 4 bahagian. Bahagian pertama adalah Extroverted vs. Introverted. Seterusnya, Sensing vs. Intuitive, Thinking vs. Feeling dan akhir sekali, Judging vs. Perceiving. Saya telah melengkapkan kuiz ini dan mendapati bahawa saya berpersonality ESTP iaitu Extrovert, Sensing, Thinking dan Perceiving dan combinasi kesemua ciri- ciri membentuk jenis personality saya yang dinamakan sebagai – The Doer yang mempunyai characteristic seperti berikut:
The dominant quality in their lives is their enthusiastic attention to the outer world of hands-on and real-life experiences. ESTPs are excited by continuous involvement in new activities and in the pursuit of new challenges. ESTPs tend to be logical and analytical in their approach to life, and they have an acute sense of how objects, events, and people in the world work. ESTPs are typically energetic and adaptable realists, who prefer to experience and accept life rather than to judge or organize it.
Bagi kuiz kedua pula iaitu The Big Five Model, saya telah mendapat keputusan Openness to experience. Bagi kuiz ini beberapa kategori telah di senaraikan dan kita perlu menilai dengan menggredkan mengikut kesesuian dengan diri kita. Kategori- kategori tersebut adalah Openness, Conscientiousness, Extraversion, Agreeableness dan Neuroticism (emotional instability).
Ciri-ciri bagi seseorang yang mempunyai sifat Openness adalah seperti berikut:
· Appreciate art, emotion, adventure, unusual ideas, imagination, curiosity, and variety of experience.
· intellectually curious, appreciative of art, and sensitive to beauty.
· more creative and more aware of their feelings.
· more likely to hold unconventional beliefs.
Berdasarkan kuiz- kuiz diatas ternyatalah bahawa sememnagnya ada banyak definisi bagi personality dan ianya tidak terikat kepada sesuatu jenis kategori kerana orang yang berlainan mempunyai cara yang berbeza untuk mentafsirkan maksud personality tersebut.
Akhir sekali, saya ingin berkongsi sebuah cerita tentang seseorang yang mempunyai avoidant personality disorder.
"I've always felt different from everybody else. I have always analyzed what people are saying looking for any hint of ulterior motive. I am very good at reading body language and can detect the slightest changes in pitch that can tell me if people are bored, annoyed or noticing that I am nervous. I have always wanted to be one of those people who seemed comfortable talking to anyone. Unless I feel like I look good on the outside, I am insecure that people are looking at my flaws.
I have always been shy, my face flushes when I talk which makes me feel even more nervous because it's like a bulls eye saying that I am uncomfortable. Do they think I'm fat or ugly am I boring or do they even care what comes out of my mouth at all. I wonder if my breath stinks, or if my face is too oily and so on and that I'm a big joke and everyone knows it but me. Is that extreme insecurity or what? I have always admired people with deformities or strange facial features who have awesome personalities and don't seem to be bothered by appearance.
I read that avoidants are hyper vigilant to their surroundings. I have always done this. I watch and listen very well to other people's conversations to get a hint of what their personalities are. And then I deem them safe or not. If they talk lowly of people often or gossip too much or make fun of people then I scratch them off my list because I figure that one day it will be me they laugh at with someone else. I am a loyal friend, if you make it past this huge wall then there is nothing in the world I wouldn't do for you short of help you bury a body.
If someone tells me I look good and I've heard her talk ugly about others I chalk up her comments to being fake because I know how she really thinks. I always thought it was good common sense to know who was safe and who is not. But my list of who is not is getting shorter. Am I the crazy one? I always thought it was a good thing that I was cautious and observant but at 30 years old I feel like I should be more comfortable with more people. I feel like there should be more life in my life. I am always pleasant always kind, it's not a put on. I never do or say anything that might hurt anyone's feelings or make people mad at me. If I am pushed to the point of anger I can't handle my own emotions and seethe in it internally until I have closure of some sort. Finally now that I know about my problem I will try to help myself and find help from those who are willing to help."
Itu sahaja buat jurnal saya kali ini. Terima kasih dan assamualaikum.
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