This is my fifth and final learning journal for the course ZZZT 2253 Pengurusan Emosi. It was indeed a flabbergasting news that we're acknowledged that there's no lecture but Dr. Ahmad Zamri Mansor had prepared a few interactive learning activities to be performed and completed by us. There are basically three tasks to be completed and we have to included our comments, interpretation and relation of our learning outcomes in the journal.
First, the session started with video watching about a grown man of his thoughts, emotion and experiences from the past to the present that we see there are obvious changes because he now see the world in a different way and view. The writings are melancholically bitter. He used to be a small boy that lived his life full with laughters without any doubts or cynism. Nonetheless, as he grew older, he seemed to realise that the world is actually an ugly place with ugly people living in. He has lived through betrayal, surmounted through disappointment and braced through heartache. He lived in depression and constantly felt lonely without any friends around. He felt like a worthless and useless person who is a total failure. Frankly, my heart sank watching and reading from the video clip. It reminds me of a friend who have the same problem. Fortunately, from the video, we also learned that the author actually managed to braced through all the ups and downs and embraced the people around him. He never give up hope and still believe in himself. Based on my reading from psychoanalytic theory, our childhood and upbringing are actually important in our personality development as we grow older. Sigmaud Freud actuallly proposed that our emotional experience are uncoscious prosesses. Unconsciousness contain emotions, motives and memories of past experiences of which we are not aware, but influences behavior hence it serves as a very powerful source of emotion and motivation. This theory actually stressed more on negative emotions especially on anxiety and anger. I do agree that our past history especially those memorable emotional experience will affect our thinking and behaviour. I lived through a very lively and happy childhood that when i grow older, i fevently wish that somehow i could turn back the time and never grow up as children because life seems easier and happy then. My childhood actually influences me a lot in my behaviour and thinking which is to not take life too seriously and to make it simple and easy. Whenever i am down and faced any obstacles, i always look to my childhood and connect it to my future that whatever i was experiencing at that particular moment will someday lead me to a better future and i will grow into a better man. i try to live everyday happily because life is short.
Next, we were introduced to one of the most accurate personality in which it could be categorised into either a Type A or Type B personality. This theory is also known as the Jacob Goldsmith theory. In brief, Type A person is an overachiever whereas Type B person has an opposite personality in which they are more easy-going and tae things easily in relaxing way even under grave situation. Type A person is very competitive and often demand more from theirselves. It has been hypothesised that Type A people are more prone to get Coronary Artery Disease. This is because they stressed out easily and are always in rush without taking some spare time to enjoy theirselves instead busy theirselves with works and chores. In my opinion, both type A and B personality has their own advantages and disadvantages. For example, a type A person is very responsible and they obliged to their works well. Whenever they are assigned with any tasks, they will make the best out of it. However, a type B personality also would be a very great companion. they take life easily and enjoy it to the fullest. they are never afraid of failure but when compared to type A person, they tend to procrastinate. Therefore, it would be great if we could adopt those good qualities and make ourselves a type AB person. I personally think that it's absurb that people are actually classified based on the blood type which is still a practice in Eastern Countries especially Korean and Japan. I personally believed that our behaviours are influenced and remodeled by our upbringings and environment.
After that, everyone is required to take Myers-Briggs Type Indicator (MBTI) personality test which is originally developed by Carl Jung. In short, MBTI sorts psychological differences into four opposite pairs, individuals are classified as extroverted or introverted (E or I), sensing or intuitive (S or N), thinking or feeling (T or F), and judging or perceiving (J or P) with a resulting 16 possible psychological types. From the test, I have come out with 4 alphabets which are I.S.T.P that is categorized as "The Mechanics". Well, I was left agape to see myself grouped as one of the mechanics because i perceived it as someone who works with the machines and mechanical stuffs hence it seems as if i am someone who detest the thought of joining a big crowd who would prefer to be with immobile things that are not alive but apparently there are more meaning to it. After doing some online reading, again, I am surprised that i am so one of "The Mechanics". Every details and elaboration on the profile of the person under The Mechanics is very close to me and I actually have all those qualities. Apparently, "The Mechanics" have a compelling drive to understand the way things work, adventurous and curious about things. I have to admit that I am actually a daring and curious person with some crazy, illogical thoughts pop up in my mind sometimes. I am daring and adventurous too and I have always want to go for bungee jumping, skydiving and to join Amazing Race someday with my brother. It is true that i am an independent person. i can take care of myself and at times, I dont feel like depending on friends and i would say that I like to be a loner more than joining a big crowd. I don't believe n the quantities of friends but the qualities. I enjoy having my own private moments and just have all the time pampering myself and do what i like to do without any companion and disruptions. I also grow up as a rebellion. I believed that it is okay to break certain prespotorous rules and regulations because I take actions and make decisions after a long thought and evaluation of the pros and cons. I am a typical Libran. I take justice and fairness seriously. Therefore, I love to treat everyone equally and not judging a person by first impression. For the same token, I appreciate and feel much gratitude for those who have been with me through thick and thin and lend our their helping hands when i need them. I vow to repay their kindness in double and will never forget it. However, although The Mechanics are described as patient, I have to confess that patience also comes wit h limitation. For instance, I will try to bear with my friend if i think that their behaviours and manners are still acceptable and tolerable but then when it really annoys me, i have to put a full stop to it. I will eentualy come to a final outburst in anguish because i have been keeping those feelings to myself. I am actually a pretty demanding person because i like things to work out the way i want it to be however, i don't always get what i want. I will try my best to improve my bad qualities and maintain what is good. However, I really like who I am now. It's just that i hope to fulfilled my life with more colours and laughters and to be able to be a part to create a better place for everyone to live in.
The last activity for the day was to take up another personality test remodeled after the Big Five Theory : Openness to Experience, Conscientiousness, Emotional Stability, Agreeableness, and Neurotism. A simple and easy mnemunic for recalling this is OCEAN. Dr. Zamri played Right Here Waiting by Richard Marx in which the lyrics of the song start with "Ocean" and it helps us to remember. Based on the test, i scored the highest under Openness to Experience. I do admit that i like literature and art a lot. From MBTI test, as a Mechanic, I am a daring and adventurous person which fit best with descriptive under openness. I am always curius about thing and take experience seriously as a lesson and they are always imprinted in my mind vividly. On the other hand, i scored the lowest for Constiousness. This shows that i lack of self-discipline and i am reckless and less thoughful when making decision. Hopefully, i will be able to improve myself and be more discipline in every aspect of life so that it is in order.
In conclusion, each of us is born unique and differently and that make everyone special. They are billions people in this world which different type of personalities and qualities. We should live in harmony and tolerate with one another to bring peace into this world and society. I am very happy to learn so much about people and their behaviours as well as personalities. I will try to improve my bad qualities and make the best out of my good virtues.
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